41 - First anniversary

Crystal & Cookie Archive on November 22, 2008, 1:58

For the past week, while I drove or milled around the barn, I have planned out what I wanted to say on this day.

Now that it’s here, words escape me.

My beloved mare died on this very night one year ago.

Do I tell stories about how sweet she was? Do I tell all of cyberspace that I loved, loved, loved this mare….. that she was my everything, that she was my heart, the stars, the moon. Do I talk about the horror of the realization that I had lost her, and in losing her, I lost part of myself? Do I talk about what happened after the cloud of foggy grief had passed,