The Surgery - Part 10. Dr. Shrink

Dressage Mom Archive on December 20, 2008, 2:57 am

Part 1Part 2Part 3Part 4Part 5Part 6Part 7Part 8Part 9Now, It's not like I hadn't seen a pshycologist or a counselor before. But this time it was going to be different. This I felt was less about an emotional issue and more about fear and anxiety. Which I guess is emotional too, but it just had a different feel to me. I knew that finding the right person to help me was key, so I started to do some research into some psychologists in the area.I was lucky to find a doc in my hospital system that had
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The Surgery. Part 9 - Dr. Neuro

Dressage Mom Archive on December 16, 2008, 3:38 pm

Part 1Part 2Part 3Part 4Part 5Part 6Part 7Part 8Since the doctor was standing right in front of me, I reached out and grabbed his hands so that I wouldn't fall face first onto the floor. He asked "Are you alright?" and I shook my head and started to cry. Fortunately there were four nurses right there, and he said to them"She's not okay. We need to get her to a bed."I can't remember if I walked or they carried me, but they got me into a bed and took my pulse and blood pressure. My pulse was around
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The Surgery. Part 8 - Complications

Dressage Mom Archive on December 8, 2008, 5:34 pm

Part 1Part 2Part 3Part 4Part 5Part 6Part 7Just when I thought that I had everything ready to go, Dr. OB says I can't have the surgery on the day I want to. You see, in order for him to properly do the tubal inserts the surgery must be during the first two weeks of my cycle, and on the surgery date I'd be three weeks into my cycle. The endometrial lining must be thin enough for him to see the entrance to the tubes, and that is easiest during the first two weeks before the lining really has a chance
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The Surgery. Part 7 - Dr. Colon

Dressage Mom Archive on December 5, 2008, 4:37 pm

Part 1Part 2Part 3Part 4Part 5Part 6I was nervous about going to see Dr. Colon for my hemorrhoids. I saw my general doc during my first outbreak, and he didn't even touch my butt. He just looked at the issue and confirmed that I had hemorrhoids. Still, this was a surgeon and I was scared that she was going to stick her finger in there and root around. Craig said not to worry, that she'd probably just take a peek like my general doc and then set up the surgery.On the day of my appointment I signed
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Dressage Mom Archive on December 3, 2008, 1:49 pm

MiKael at Rising Rainbow was kind enough to give me this blog award. Thanks MiKael!I feel I must pass it along to these people -Stacey at Behind the BitWiola at Freelance Instructor's DiaryHaffie girl at Pony Under my BedHalf Pass GirlKate at Lil KateAnd lastlyCraig at Scripturient because I know he loves a good butterfly. And thinks blog awards are dumb.So thanks to you guys for having blogs for me to read. I'm behind on some of your stories but I'll catch up eventually.
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The Surgery. Part 6 - But wait, there's more...

Dressage Mom Archive on December 2, 2008, 2:06 am

Part 1Part 2Part 3Part 4Part 5The decision was made to have surgery. Even though the thought of one surgery scares the crap out of me, the thought of having to have two surgeries would be worse. So I asked Dr. OB if he could combine his surgery with another surgery that I really needed to get done so I could just get both of them over with at one time. The second surgery would be a hemorrhoidectomy.Yes, people, I have hemorrhoids. I never had any kind of butt issues until after I had kids, specifically
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YeeHa Pony!

Dressage Mom Archive on November 30, 2008, 2:40 am

I hadn't been able to ride Kaswyn since last Sunday because of a couple of things. First, I was going to ride on Tuesday but I was in a rental car that wasn't a four wheel drive like my truck, and since it was snowing and the roads were bad out by the barn I decided not to get stuck in the teeny car they gave me. I had a rental because of my accident (which you can read about here) while my car was getting fixed. Then Wednesday was tests at the hospital day (which I will catch you all up on, really
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The dreams that haunt me

Dressage Mom Archive on November 23, 2008, 1:08 pm

Last night I had a dream about Blair. They don't happen often anymore, but when they do they have a deep and lasting effect on me. The whole story about Blair starts here.In the dream I was riding in a car with my brother and his wife. Somehow I had gotten informed that Blair was back and that she'd be having breakfast at this little diner located in the small downtown where I used to live. I didn't really believe that she'd be there, but as we drove by looking for a parking spot I saw her through
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This is what expensive looks like

Dressage Mom Archive on November 23, 2008, 12:13 am

This is one multi dose vial of Legend. It has 20 ml of fluid, and at 4 ml per does it contains 5 doses. And costs $350."Liquid Gold" Kaswyn is due for another shot of Legend on Thanksgiving. I'll certainly keep up with the shots, especially since I'm seriously making plans to show next year.In related news, I rode Kaswyn today for the first time since his hock injections. He felt a little stiff all over, but I'm not surprised considering he has been confined to his stall since Tuesday except for
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The Surgery. Part 5 - The Ablation

Dressage Mom Archive on November 21, 2008, 3:55 pm

Part 1Part 2Part 3Part 4Dr. OB and I talked about my options. Any birth control method with hormones – an IUD, cervical ring, inplant, etc – would make me feel crappy and I didn’t want to live that way. He said if I was sure that I was done having kids that he could do a uterine ablation. It’s a procedure where they cycle very hot water through your uterus for about 11 minutes and that destroys the lining (the endometrium) of your uterus. Most patients never have a period again, and most
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A little poke here, and little jab there

Dressage Mom Archive on November 19, 2008, 12:37 pm

Dr. B came out yesterday to check Kaswyn's hocks. Well, he really just came out to do a lameness exam, but I told him that I thought it was his hocks. When Dr. B does one of these exams he examines the horse while his assistant writes down any comments that Dr. B has. He started the exam by feeling Kaswyn's left front leg up and down, and found a little calcified area on the inside middle of his left front cannon bone. He commented on it, and as the assistant was writing it down I said "So what's
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Fighting winter horse scurf

Dressage Mom Archive on November 18, 2008, 1:43 am

Every winter once Kaswyn has been blanketed and not bathed for a few weeks he develops what I call "Winter Horse Scurf". It's this grey powdery dandruffy stuff that clings to his coat and rubs off on my bridle, saddle, and boots. It's a little oily so it makes kind of a thick grey glue patch on my tack that has to be aggressively scrubbed off. It also gets all over the inside of his blankets. Even daily thorough currying and brushing can't completely rid his body of this persistent powder. It's
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When Legend falls short

Dressage Mom Archive on November 16, 2008, 4:49 am

When I rode Kaswyn on Tuesday he didn't feel quite right. He felt fine at the trot but didn't want to bring his hocks under himself at the canter. This makes me suspicious that he has pain in his hocks. I had the hocks injected last December, but then didn't follow up with monthly Legend because it's so damn expensive. Now I'm regretting that decision. The Legend injection a few weeks ago seemed to help a little bit but now I'm feeling that the canter needs help.So on Tuesday Dr. B will come out
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The Surgery. Part 4 - The Pill

Dressage Mom Archive on November 12, 2008, 3:36 pm

Part 1Part 2Part 3Like I have said before I had been on and off of various pills over the years. I don’t like the way I feel when I’m on the pill. Here is why.I’m constantly hungry, so I put on weight.If I’m not hungry, I’m nauseous.I’m irritable.My PMS is actually ten times worse on the pill.I have no energy.My libido goes way down (which doesn't only affect me).The only good thing about the pill is that my skin gets clearer. That’s not enough of a plus to get me to take it.I asked
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The Surgery. Part 3 – The Flood

Dressage Mom Archive on November 11, 2008, 5:29 pm

Part 1Part 2I got my period for the first time at twelve years old. I’ve always been very regular, having 28 or 30 day cycles. I never had bad cramps, or lots of bleeding, so my period was never a big deal for me. However, earlier this year it became a very big deal.I started noticing that my bleeding was getting heavier. I just chalked it up to the fact that I had just spent almost four years not having a period due to two pregnancies and two years of breastfeeding and I had forgotten how much
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The Surgery. Part 2 - How it All Started

Dressage Mom Archive on November 10, 2008, 4:23 am

Part 1 It all started with me having my babies. I had been on the pill on and off for years, but went off the pill early in my relationship with Craig (for reasons I will discuss later). Once we got married I wanted to have children as soon as possible because I knew I was getting older. I was 35 when I had Lily and 36 when I had Macey, which is much older than I wanted to be. Since I’m such a freak about needles and stuff I didn’t have an amniocentesis with either child, but thank god they
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The Surgery. Part 1 – An Introduction

Dressage Mom Archive on November 7, 2008, 7:32 pm

Welcome to the first post in my new series. I’ll warn you now – this is going to be a long one. And it’s going to get really personal, and very detailed. I debated if I was going to talk about all of this, but it’s been taking up such a huge part of my thoughts lately, and will greatly affect my riding, so I thought I’d just get it out there. I’m know I’m not the first person to have to deal with all of this, so maybe someone will read my story and get some comfort or something out
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Bad night

Dressage Mom Archive on November 5, 2008, 9:02 pm

Both Macey and I have the stomach flu. Or, rather, both of us puked this morning (her last night too). Those of you who know me know that I'm not good with puke AT ALL. In fact, I wrote a whole post about it here.Craig has been a champ. He took care of Macey last night, and then both of us this morning at 5 am. He gets extra points because, well, I kinda had a seizure and passed out. Then I puked. When we first started dating I told him about the whole seizure thing and in the eight years since
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If it aint broke.. wait, it IS broke!

Dressage Mom Archive on November 3, 2008, 5:28 pm

Today I'm going out to the barn after work. Not to ride.. no, no no. Today I will be filling in holes in the arena that have been created by groundhogs. Somehow one or more of these damn things has decided that they need to run around in the space between the arena wall and the kickboards. And then, for no apparent reason, they need to dig their way out. Never mind that there is a space by each gate at the end of the arena that they could easily crawl through. They must dig, and in more than one
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No NaBloPoMo

Dressage Mom Archive on November 2, 2008, 1:59 am

Today officially starts NaBloPoMo, also known as National Blog Posting Month. It's where you post on your blog every day for one month. I did it for two years, but I'm not going to be able to get it done this year. I used to be able to bang out a post at work, but work has been too crazy, and they are predicting that it's going to be simply stupid busy here until the end of the year. Lots of people want to get pregnant before Christmas, I guess. I'll see if I can hit the 50% mark and post every
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